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Friendship

2005-07-03T22:20:00.000+07:00

Ok, I'm typing this for the second time and it pisses me off. Seriously. Someone said I must live up to my standard and write about more serious and important stuff in my blog in PROPER English. Therefore the Good English people. Pardon me.

NKF Show PartI just passed. I wanted to watch and was already staring blankly in front of the damn cube for 15 minutes until I asked my cousin who sat there, watching Ch8. Then she told me its on Ch U. Wth. I told her before hand I HAVE to watch the show... Stop being selfish and egoistical will you? YOU don't know how much it means to me yea?

HB: SOrry yea? I wanted to watch. Will make it up to you ok? Sorry.. Will catch the replay next week or whenever it is. I broke a promise.. Ohman. I didn't mean it..

To Someone:
You knew me for what? 5-6 years already and are you trying to tell me you have no idea that I have this attitude problem? Then you must be kidding 'cos the people around me now already acknowledges the presence of it and they accepted me.. Are you trying to say you can't? Then too bad. This is me. Stop comparing me to her. I am not her. True, I may not be as eye-catching, as pretty, as mature as her but at least I am ME. You can't change me you know. Sure, I can act like I don't care and act nice but it will be all fake.. Would you rather I be like that?

If you would, I don't see any point in talking to you.

When you need people to go out, you find her. When you grief, you ran to me. Wth is this. Its like. YOu won't miss the water till it runs dry. One day when I'm gone, you will know. Maybe you are hoping I'm gone.. Careful with what you wish for, it will come true.

You asked me who are you in my heart. You know the answer, you don't have to demand it from me. That's unnecessary and redundant and it is pointless to ask for I will ask you back the same question. You give me an answer then.

For your information, Whatever simply means "do as you please" or "anything". I'm not trying to diss you off. It's what I say when I have no definite answer. Happy? Elated? Go, JUMP with joy. Scream with laughter. Laugh, with tears of joy in you eyes. Play happy songs, dance to it, sing to it. Grin as much as you can. Go ahead.

General:
People always say "friends forever" but how many really mean it when they say it? A mere few I dare to say. You know, when people get hurt, its always people who are close to them who did it. Why? Cos we cared, far too much about you. That's why in return, We got hurt. Hurt worse than anything, worse than being pierced in the heart. Far worse than that.

Should I care? Do YOU care? I doubt you answer.

Remember, friendship is a two-way road, never one. It won't work out with one, it will fall apart and shatter.

Friends quarrel, fight and have little tiffs and squabbles. Without them, the bond will not be as strong. After going through these obstacles then will you understand each other more. If you don't even know this, I really have nothing to say, anymore.

FRIENDSHIP

2005-07-03T22:16:00.000+07:00

alot like love <3

2005-06-30T23:43:00.000+07:00

frm today. im nt gonna yi lai on anyone.. i hope. im nt gnna complain and make life so much more hectic and difficult for you yea.. so u can concentrate on other ppl. yepp.

think theres sth wrong with my blog. how come my tagboard keeps hanging? o.O xian. getting a new template soon, bored with this already.

kept falling asleep. but i didnt =x on the account leonard and skj kept talking and laughing and they kept me awake. LOLS. ok. hmmms. fanny didnt come sch.. fever. take care xia! see la. what shit dengue. go sue the dumb doc. hahas. anyway get well soon yea? monday's hols. =) get what i mean? heh.

meet ryann. or cleyann. oi make up ur mind which name u want lar. ok ok. watched a lot like love. before that i think i was in a rather bad mood. deprived of sleep and all... i slept at 2am this whole week. walao. damn tired.. wanna die.. carol say i had big eyebags. nan guai. i look like a nervous wreck now la. no surprise. i think he was shocked? dunno la =x hey ryanntell me whn u talk to me k. at first there were only us in the whole theatre. damn freaky. ends up only 4 more came in. geez. so little lo.. ok its quite late liao la.. anyway its not bad a show. funny. but storyline wise abit doesnt make sense... where got frens le nv stay in contact? considering they love each other so much. rite? yeaaa.

anyway i had to submit the dumb script for interclass musical drama competition. hope we can get into finals. hahas. xian. i mugged for the script? havent touch hw. die le.. gonna sleep at 2sth again like ytd...

hmms. stopping here. tc peeps.

Friendship

2005-06-25T21:43:00.000+07:00

Okay. From past comments from a certain someone, I am going to use proper English. Yepp. Crazy me? No.

There's the NKF show Part I today and many thanks to my selfish and egoistical cousin, I didn't manage to watch HB perform. Wth. I told you i wanted to watch and I didn't know it was on the other channel and you what? Sit there and continue watching that dumb channel 8 which is utter rubbish anyway. The story has got no absolute storyline which I think isn't worth watching. DUH. I mean, why would you want to watch a crap show right? Karma. Watch out man. Sorry HB, broke my promise to you... Will make it up yea? Watch the re-run or something. I will figure it out, sorry.

To someone:
Look, after knowing me for such a long time, since when didn't you know that I have this attitude problem that by now, everyone already acknowledges? Gosh. Just because I showed some attitude you asked me who are you to me. What kind of question is that? You know my answer then why are u demanding to know it again? Like. C'mon, this isn't the first time we quarrelled right and between friends, there will be surely be little tiffs, quarrels and maybe fights. Without it, how can the bond be strengthened? Only by going through these obstacles then will the bond be stronger. If you don't get it, I simply have nothing else to say to you.

For your information, whatever simpply means anything. When people say whatever, they mean: do as you please. Stop being touchy, you are a guy. So stop being over-sensitive. It isn't attractive or nice by the way. Do make an effort to try and understand others... It will benefit you, I am sure.

Oh. And, stop comparing me to her.

General:
You know... people always say, "Friends Forever" but how many really mean what they say? A mere few I guess. And, when someone hurts you, its probably your friend. You got hurt 'cos you cared too much, far too much.

Should I care? You hurt me over and over again; it carries on in a circle. Why? 'Cos I cared, I cared far more than you do.

Friendship is a two-way road, never one. It never works out with only one way.

Shoutouts:
-HannBin: I apologise. Super sorry... =( Sorry i missed you PA dance ok? I'm going to make it up to you. Haha. Where's my mp3? I missed it like you missed yours.
-Everyone: I don't want to link you all 'cos I have reasons.

initial d

2005-06-25T20:43:00.001+07:00

my blog's like. dead. hahas.. not been updating. seriously. whn was the last post anyway? o.O geez.

ok ok. i have decided to love ello! im abandoning leehom.. cos leehom is too old? HAHAs. kidding. ello is like. far. yepp. wild dude.. nv fails to make girls like US scream. like.. umm. i attended his concert? it rocks! i went to 3 so far and his rocks the most. uhhhuh. and the fact tht its at some discotheque too. LOLS. ok ok.. some weird uncle dragged a chair and gave me a seat and beer. goodness. ok nvm. the concert rocks.. the drummer too! he looks like jay except with bigger eyes aand cooler. smiles more anyway. [haha vivien!]btw. ello said thank you baby to me! WHOAAAaaaa. mwahahahs. ok im swooning. grinning like some spastic idiot now. hahas.

i went for glenn fredly's too. stop closing ur eyes whn u sing? but nice voice.. hmmms. it shook his hand 4 times. heh. nicenice. love his voice! tho not as cool as ello's!

delon!! my fav. idol! =) hhas. he will make a great husband.. i noe. ur response will be like. HUH. serious. hes soo patient and great with kids. those tht went to his concert love him! like duh rite. he remembers me! lols.

hmmmmms. finally to today.

fanily day is a waste of time. -.- seriously. like. how many parents do come? our cls so little ppl can? less than 20 come. HAHA. what a surprise. not.

went to do duty halfway cos i was bored. anyway my wrist hurts thanks to the dumb video cam which is like heavy. sadcase.

we went to watch initial d! it rocks la! nice cars. heh. except for jay? looks weird. i meant him. not the car. hahas,. funny. and nice. cars!! fast ones!! lols. and edison. hahas. before tht went je to eat.. with us were carol fanny qings audrey cassandra hb yizhi zhiwei. the rest of the 2/8 guys went on their own. thenn. umm.

haiyuan called me suddenly. i was like oh shit. whn i saw his no u noe? and he was like.. u at je ahs. walao eh. saw him. o.O and to think i already got yu gan abt meeting him and i told him: tc cos i dont tink we will meet so soon. how zhun is tht. o.O ......zzzzz

hm.. and. i think i saw zhongxian.. psch mate. hes frm rv. haiyuan too. i wanted to say hi or sth to him la. but then his whole bunch of friends were like staring? and nh and rv conflict not yet settled i dun wanna fight? o.O so didnt say hi in the end. sorrie!

shoutouts!!! abc order k.
-carol: hmmms. cheer up yea? promise u i would watch a lot like love with u. yepps. i think i havent been a great fren or sth la. nv talk to u and all.. and dunno la. tc yea?

-fanny: THANKSSSSSS. u took cab with me today! initial d rocks! and thx for the nice bookmark. tho it was pink.. but it was braille rite. cool. hehs.

-hb: HAHAHA. not gonna return ur mp3!! nxt time dun sleep so little la. zhu! hairclips!!! LOL. loser!

initial d

2005-06-25T20:43:00.000+07:00

first day of sch

2005-06-25T18:43:00.000+07:00

Ok ok. first day of sch. rather xian actually. was quite happy to see everyone again.. hmm. zhenghan lost alot of weight. -.- lols. dont diet la! wuliao.

our new chem teacher is mr see. oh man. like. sure fail de la.. all the moles and stuff. and he taught us wrong stuff liao. twice. goodness.. we kept desiaoing him.. by telling him we dunno whats atomic no. and molecular mass. haha. we acted bloody GONG. i tink he got quite sick of repeating everything. he started the chapter again. yeaa. and when he was talking abt sodium carbonate i hoped someone asked if sodium is a metal but noone did. aww. okk.

xian. boring. sim still our english teacher. ok. shes not bad la.. except for sometimes. yea. hmms. and we havent do the chn proj. dumb like anything. on authors. blah. and maths. shit lo. die le.. damn rush.

hmmm. chia scolded those who nv come for his remedials. fanny said i gave the i-dun-care look. got meh. o.O ok anyway he scolded us thanks very much to dawei who overslept. nice try on the excuses. after tht i was like saying mr chia. ok practically scolding him liao la. cos he yelled at innocent ppl like us. duh.

prac for bio. rather ok. another proj. coming up. BAH. xian.

after sch had maths remedial.. hb wore his glasses looked damn guai. tho not. he left halfway giving the excuse english tuition but he went ginza instead. xiao. after tht me and ziyi went ginza to eat actually but we dropped by the cmoc shop and saw him. hahas. was damn hungry cos i didnt eat anything the whole day so had gastric pain. booo.

shoutouts
jack-thx for the stuff u brought frm china. yepp. and for lending me naruto
hb- u zhu lo! walao. u scratched my hand and drank half of my pepsi. heartless lo. ask me walk summore and i had gastric pain. stupid zhu. DUN FREN U AH! -omg. ok.
ziyi- glad we spent time together! =)

indo=/

2005-06-10T21:38:00.000+07:00

it`s been like ages i updated. the blog seems dead o.O i seem to be dead too anyway. boo.

im sick now. OH GREAT. THANKS LOADS. frm s`pore already wanna sick dont want now then. simply too great. now i feel like dunno. like im gonna nod off to sleep or sth la. it started with cough.. thn i started sneezing like some mad girl infected with a weird disease.. then i think im runnning a fever but NOONE cares. so what to do. im alone with my bro with all the maids and my grandma.. my mum and dad locked the rm. so im stuck. outside.

im learning guitar. finally got arnd to do it. hahas.

some shoutouts:

`a2ces-take care loads girls! <3 you all!

`hb-doubt ur gonna read this la. u nv read my blog -.- hmms. what to say. its hard to contact you.. seriously. take care yea? sick too rite.. u worse la. and cheeer up ok? its nt the end- i promise.

`fanny.qings.xiaowei.jarrel.ANNYONE i noe-take care yea?

`carol-reply my mail la. lazy arh?

`kaiming- stop training too hard la.. get enough rest. ok?

`ryann-so. stil ok now?

byesss

2005-05-28T23:23:00.000+07:00

okay okay.
maybe my last post before im going tmr. yepp yepp.
went for the towkay thingy to help out- rather cool yea. heyy peeps. try and go. its at jurong west st. 41 at block 421. lotsa nice stuff to buy and eat.

shall have shoutouts. HEH. =) [listed in random order- as in which one i rmbr first la!]
carol-
heyyy. left u a msg.. yepp. prev entry. think u read it already but nvm. take care loads yea? and hmm. promise get u nice stuff to eat. LOL. and clothes! hahas. a2ces for life. emerald :)

kaiming-
wth happened to ur fone huh? di. aiyo. i`ve been trying to contact u like mad la. hmms. dun train too hard ok? drink mre water. tc. weather is mad nowadays. if ur coach dun let u rest murder him. lol..

hannbin-
thx loads for ur mp3. it rocks la! haha. yay. it can keep me frm being bored- thank god for the invention of this lame game called tetris. YEA. anyway stop saying ur fat. simply being lame can? dont do stunt until hurt urself lar..

sherwin- [dun think ur gonna read this]
hmm. what shall i say. =) cheers dude. dont go arnd cycling so much in the sun, ur dark enough.. and dun act on impluse. dun get urself into trouble la.. tsk tsk. thx loads for pei-ing someone. yepp. rocks. tc!

leonard- [im sure u dunno this site exist. lol.]
u noe what u should do lo. tc. leonard is a boy who has great love for soccer. LOL. haha.

fanny-
OI. go blog more la. lazy. -.- take care! dun get sick. i think ur going to.. looking at ur face today. and stop hanging out with GAYS. LOL.

xiaowei-
take care of ur foot ah.. aiyo. gd luck yea? hahas. must tc hor. dun walk arnd so much. later u cant play bball le... yepp. cant even walk properly how? must tc hor.

qings-
hello. ur apple platter rocks. tho the one i bought .. the choc harden. hahas. jiayou yea? and tc loads. eat more! haha. dun sleep so much le!

mich-
same. jiayou! earn more.. thn can treat us to seoul garden. heh.

jarrel and yizhi-
dun fast fwd. i dun wanna get left behind. UHHUH. u noe what i mean. and stop giggling- both of u are guys. lol. though its fun.. but ppl look at u as though ur NUTs. hahas.

wenjian-
u have to come to blk 421- i dun care u promised!

foyang-
wangchan rocks. enough.

a²ces-
amethyst, amber, coral, emerald. =) rocks. STay together. go out more yea.. play pool. lols.

3o3 peeps-
anyone interested in the sec 3 musical intercls competition. we need someone to contribute to the script.. then find one day meet up and discuss ideas you have in mind.
theme: friendship, loyalty, love.
time limit-10mins.

2o9ners-
hmms. u guys continue rocking yea? lol. enjoy the holiday everyone!

PTC. sucks. sucks.

2005-05-27T23:27:00.000+07:00

DAMN.
todays ptc. which in other word is terror.

casty is being so freaking annoying. wait. hes always like tht yea? walao eh. just cant seem to leave me alone lar can. lame ass.

my mum came.. 2 mins talking to mrs lip. what a waste of time, no? lame.. shldnt came or what lar. sleep at home or what.

cme proj. sucks. its like what? a one-man show. this case woman lar.

lifes so screwed. im leaving on sunday. in approximately 30 hours.. and i still cant believe it.
anyway, me carol ziyi went bugis today. met eewen and sophiana. took neox. shuang shuang.
got a new bag.

carol- im gonna call you like maybe tmr. sth`s bugging me- not saying here what who when where how. walls have ears. some have EYES. in life u will meet awful sucky ppl like liars and those backstabbers. shldnt care anymore abt her la.. waste of time. pointless anyway. tht person on purpose did stuff to annoy and piss u off. and make u sad and everything So. main point- dun get too sad over it. not worth it. spend time on other things and tht do u good. not like this.. like whats the point rite? u get angry or sad - GET OLD earlier. sure dun want tht rite? yeaaa.

walked arnd aimlessly (sorta). was actually quite down at first but mood got better as we see nice stuffs. heh. madness la. spent lots. now im broke again. wait-since whn wasnt i broke?

why must u ppl be so damn biased? its just unfair treatment. so what? i get over those times whn i need ppl most and yet i didnt turn to you all. you all didnt even noe. or care. u said u do but its so not convincing whn u spend ninety percent of the time talking abt him. pointless anyway. u just dont seem to get it huh?

its the end of the world if i fail. ISSIT? maybe ur gonna be proved wrong. im just some normal kid ok.. there will be times whereby i fail but maybe not as badly as getting bad lousy results according to ppl but according to you they sucks as though its the last thing u wanna touch or see. freakass. i have to work so damn bloody hard and put in so much efforts to get that DAMN tiny not-so-huge-compared-to-his`s thing. WHAT ABT HIm. all he have to do is get into sci stream.

HELLO. FYI. I GOT INTO TRIPLE SCIENCE AND YET U DIDNT SAY MORE THAN AN OKAY.
WTH.
AND MY COM IS SSTILL LAGGING AND BEING LAN.

UTTER UNFAIRNESS.

where is all MY rights.
this is my declaration.
if you dont like it- get out of my life.
im not asking you to do anything other than realising some things arent as easy as you thought.

now what?

u want me to get first in cls? madness. ur not gonna get it. even if i do get first- its not for you, its for ME.

trust =x

2005-05-24T22:06:00.000+07:00

I HATE IT WHN FRIENDS LIE TO ME.
ESPECIALLY THOSE I TRUST MOST.
WHY?
u said its for the best.
u don`t even know half the feelings- the disappointment, mistrust.
i dunno.

2o9 lunch + 2 days cultural potpourri

2005-05-23T10:15:00.000+07:00

shall blog abt cultural potpourri. yepp. so ROCK.

first nite- western
nice. superb can! though i was practically running arnd doing duty with stupid cameras it was fun yea.. we were like acting like paparazzis capturing super funny shots of teachers and frens. mr foo included too. ms yeo. mrs fong and mrs b.Lim. YEA. i did duty with priscilla- supposedly rich girl. hahas. us seniors wanted to bribe her buy us supper but we were too nice or sth lar. haha.

then i got to noe this boy boy! during rehearsal we sat first row he was int he second.. the pro-est er hu soloist i ever seen. ms yeo adores him. chao pro can? yepp. then he dun wanna tell me his name while he kept chanting mine. o.O lol. cute lar! i noe his name now- hong xuan. LOL.

ok.. so first item was band. nice! mamma mia rock. yepp. jessica is one pro drummer. yepp. ok lar. everyone did greaat! =)

then it was gymnastics! COOL man. was super worried cos during rehearsal they failed. yea.. but they managed it in the end. yepp. kewl kewl. scammer la. hann bin yc shibin wahtuck they all where got sec 1 and sec 2? my gawd lor.

after tht er-hu solo-smiles. hong xuan!!!

ELDDs was great la. cas`s a superb actress. nice! very realistic and funny.

choir. ok la. blinding white gowns tht make them look angelic. and we dun need flash for photos cos the lights reflects off their white gowns. LOL.

harp. pardon me but i think its the xian-est. or sth. music wise everyone can sleep listening to it cos it was so peaceful and all. yepp. the nice thing is when they tune the harps. fast movements. heh.

then it was eldds again with a dreams thingyy.

dance! omg. nice! super chio. and full of life! whooooos. so rock. yepp. the costume is nice without the flowers la. and winston and wangqin performed! can see lo. so pro! jack too! heh. jack sat on the bamboo sticks. lol. rebecca too.

the first nite was great la.. yepp. wouldnt regret it lo.

second nite- cultural
went sch first for 2o9 cls lunch. MASS. CHAO SHUANG! WOOOOOOS. lots of ppl turn up can? then we ordered canadian pizza.. 6 of them and we finished them flat in less than 5 mins. wooaaa. the whole gathering was like so nice, so wonderful and perfect. even aj was there. yepp. pro us lo. super united still or what la.. its been like 5 mths since we were separated into different classes but i guess everyone still cant forget the 2o9 days full of life, fun, vigour and joy. it was all abt happiness. true, we always kena blamed or scolded by teacher but hey, its fun and what matter is the cls spirit. and the bond is still there after all these. i think nth can break it after all we have gone thru together as a cls. -wait, i can rant on and on abt this so i think i better stop here.

the guys played soccer at the netball court and dumbass candyman come and disrupt everything. damn him! so what can?? can`t you see everyone was so happy without ur presence, u stupid bu-zhi-dong rude teacher. and u dare call urself one la.. point finger until so close. walao. confiscate the ball summore. asshole lo.

after tht went to play bball netball style. girls vs boys. and we tio trashed. booooos. at least we managed to score 3 times. not as pathetic yeaa? thn me and carol went to her hse while the rest went to ginza...

hmmms. thn paxson called carol and die die wanna come her hse until i talked to him. bu zhi dong. stupid. thn went westmall meet him while we asked sherwin come rescue us. i was horrified. =/ lol. ok i was just kidding. fanny and cas came along without qizhi. ate bk. the 2 of them didnt eat. samuel sihao and sherwin came already.. thn we went arcade. and i met wenjian. my gawd. ahhas. cool meeting u there!

took cab to ucc. foyang was shocked to see me in heels la. yea yea watever. i think everyone is. HAHA. big news or sth. plsu i just realised my skirt is s-h-o-r-t. uhhuh. watever. everyone looked nice =) heh. special occasion xia.. jim too! my god. he collected his specs already. Chio ok! his shirt too. its funny shopping with him la. hahas. compliments compliments!

co`s performance was beyond my expectation. it wa great. saw berince. and hong xuan!!! boyboy! hahas. nice nice! love it.

the mama tingy was lame but was quite meaningful la..

dance! tribal dance. the song spoils everyting. hann bin`s sis was in there.. pro. i think she will be like her bro la. pro kias.

journey to the west opera! saw u qings and michelle! LOL. dance dance dance! hehh. was ok bahs.

then guzheng! xiaowei!!! omg. chao pro! even though she sprained her ankle. take care xia! u rock girl! ur gz skills damn nice can? omg lo.

after tht ccs. liu kong and eve pro! WOO. he tio slap liao then hug. LOL. farnie! it was rather realisitic on pei du mama.. the thinking and treatment they had in singapore. quite true. no wonder they won gold.

then it was dance again! zhu lin! i can see BOB. HAHA. ziyi vivien too. and hannbin had a solo. ok. not really solo but it was nice. dead romantic i tell you. yea. and the bamboos are cool. and the fake lights. ahhas. nice la. but more to those romance than the previous one. yepp. but overall still nice.. pretty pics.

oh yar. hong xuan came and find me! LOL. he was sacha sacha-ing like ytd. hahas. whn the usher ask the co peeps to get out he hid frm them. gao xiao.

we saw the dance members! hann bin. LOL. u look super olden days type charming boys. haha. ziyi and vivien too. nice costume! dun worry la u guys did great too!

went for supper. but didnt eat anything. kfc only had chicken leftt. boos. it was late la.. damn late le. then i caught the last bus home. heng xia. the walk home was scary and freaky. bahs. kong bu!! o.O i was walking damn fast. and it was deserted and there was nobody! BOO. sadcase.

today
last lesson for chiense cls. so glad. the day finally came! WOOS. im not going again. HAh. after tht went to meet carol. she had a fever la.. tsk tsk. we went bugis kinokuniya so more fang bian for her. had milkshakes! nice! and ichigo bliss. mmmmmm.
talked alot. went home. was tired so slept.

**[out of topic]]
i seriously don`t get what YOU mean. if u had seen me on saturday i guess tht wld be the perfect view of me- with heels and short skirt and all. but i will die if thts the everyday me. u can`t change my life or me. life still sucks but i still have 2/9 to fall back on. at least they were there. and i noe ppl who nv really left me and stuck with me thru my darkest times.. i`m super glad i met fantastic ppl like u all.. the lights of my life.

shoutouts:
`carol- take care gurl! dun get sick ok? dun so sad le.. yea. not worth it. u noe who`s real and who`s not.
`michelle- thx for taking mrt with me!
`fanny- don`t worry too much yea? cheerup.. he didnt mean it..
`2o9- you ppl rock my life. nth can replace u all. there wil nv be a cls tht can be like us!

deprived of sleep..

2005-05-19T21:11:00.000+07:00

seriously. i have been looking rather down and tired for the past few days. i`m so freaking deprived of sleep man. and all the tests are not helping either.. i`m sure to flunk or sth lo. especially chinese- c`mon la. i fell asleep can? i only had 3 hrs of sleep which explains why. uh-huh.

how great.

went jp with fanny carol aik jim yizhi. LOL. pei-ed jim buy shirt.. super funny can? 2 da nan ren and 3 zhar bos pei one dude buy a tee. gao xiao la.. the salesman was like tryin not to laugh and everythin and i tink we caused quite a huge commotion anyway. BTW. he has a psp. chio xia.. and carol went askk him issit his. hahas. thn go make his specs.. 6th one. he spoil one every month for this year. pro kia. =/ but quite zhi dong lo jim.. pay himself.. he had this orangey red one which is super diff frm what he used to wear but nvm.

tuesday sucks. walao. did i tell u how much words hurt? life so suck rite now.

shout-outs:
`fanny
thx for asking =D i don`t look pissed ok. just tired.

`qings
LOL. qings im okk.

`sherwin
thxx so much for replying my msg at 3am in the morning. thx for just being there yeaaa.

`hannbin
u owe me nth le. hahas. =)

APACHE ROCK. camp.

2005-05-15T12:22:00.000+07:00

apache itchy wanna fight!!
apache rock.

ok ok. shall talk abt my camp.. hmms. thurs we released early thn go campsite. separated into grps.. the peeps in my grp so rock. yepp. then we have faizal as our trainer. kewl dude. HANDSOME -gringrin. he`s half indo..

day1`
we had ice-breaking games and all. thn had this leap of faith which was rather cool. thn the wall match. u noe. there everyone will be pushing ur butt? uh-huh. o.o cool la. the dinner was... the chicken curry no taste de! lols. then planned expedition. after tht the teacher briefed us until quite late. arnd 1 lights out but were crapping abt until 2 then slept. the bunk was weird.. thn we slept with out hair wet so i sleep on my sch u. hehs.

day2`
expedition!!!!! before tht breakfast- nasi lemak. the best meal ever. LOL. then walked frm campsite to kentridge park. far can? it was uphill somemore. then to haw par villa. the freaky checkpoint. had to do this task which was quite challenging.. form a cirlce and sit on each other`s laps. woos. pro us managed the maximum time. and we cannot touch the statue in the middle.. gary sat on me! o.O omg lo. not he heavy or anything but my legs were shaking like xiao. yeaaaaa. i sat on huiwen. poor her. but. we managed it! WOOOOOS. pro us!

we carried on walking to west coast park. yes. that place for our run this year.. had lunch there. outdoor cooking.. hahas. thn lapkan cooked for hw and me. the noodles were half cooked -.- omg lo. so i ate a lil and had baked beans instead.. i nearly ate a can cos i thot noone wants to eat it? my goodness. i was gonna die. and they said i looked super mian qiang. then why is noone helping me eat??? walao. im not eating baked beans again for the next 2 months or sth lo. sick of it. imagine lar! had the task- all the members` footprints on mahjong. ok la. seriously. thn they decided to scam us. with samuel pretending he had heatstroke. yepp. pro la he. he was like" my hand numb ah.. giddy ah. " -.- act until so zhen lo! was desperately fanning him can? and the towels and all. uh-huh. helped support his back cos he was slipping and he accused me of touching his bum? my gawd. no lo. thot u dying can? AND U LIE UR HEAD DOWN ON MY HAND!!! BOO. in the end it was ok. faizal rather impressed cos we didnt panic. YAY.

the walk to labrador park was the furthest.. so. everyone was quite mentally prepared cos faizal told us. its super far can? i was dying! boo. wanna faint.. seriously la. tired like shit can? but still. endure endure! halfway thru roll call tht time jipeng gone. damn lo. he supposedly fell into the dumb drain and sprained his ankle. yet stil there shut up. walao eh. ppl, pls ahs. nxt time u fall into drain and sprain ur ankle, shout for help can? dun like jipeng. act cute like tht. diam diam like zhar bo.. we tio scolded cos we weren`t observant and failed to 2man carry him. BOO. time was ticking away. we have 30 mins left to get to our checkpoint, do the task, get back to campsite. hard. tough. but we didnt give up. yepp. perseverance man. we rushed the whole thing.. and make it back in time with arnd 8 mins left? YAY. qiang can? was drained of energy tho..

then campfire!! campire rock man!!
apache rock! we super enthu or sth la. kept laughing and cheering and shouting like mad ppl. but it was super kewl and fun. yea. thn performed the cheer.. gao xiao. after tht we were chanting lotsa stuf. heh. chanted ms yeo ms yeo ms yeo! but she went home so cant dance for us. sadcase la. once in a lifetime chance lo! BOO. b. lim gamely take it on! go mrs b.lim! u rockkk. super ke ai. she jumped so enthu-ly lo. nice! apache like clap along cheer along sing along with everything. hahas. enthu us. -smiles.

lights out quite early..

day3`last day
sad sad. had dance. NICE!!! woos. it rained so no wall match. hmmm. thn we played a game with trainers.. they claimed they nv lost. but pro nh won. woos. after tht talked with faizal.. the whole team la. super duper sad lo. sang the 'cant smile without you' song. yepp. cant bear to leave can? its like. sad.

had area cleaning. we did toilets. then jj and samuel came in and saw the bin? you noe. -.- lame shit la! they were pretending they dunno what it is. hahas. stupid me on-ed the shower. and its slanted so part of me was wet. my gawd. yea. done it. then packed.. brought bags to hall and ready to leave..

whn leaving everyone so yi yi bu she. uhhuh. had grp pic. YAY. nice one! on the bus everyone frm komanche and apache sang lotsa stuf and cheeers. cool. i think the bus uncle nearly died cos of the racket we made. LOL.

went back sch. then we did lots of cheers and all. in the parade sq. with mrs lim (ART) and ms wassan watching. did the billy banja- they joined in. we did lots la. attracted lots of attention. hahas. get books and all. clsrm a mess. but watever!

then went je for long john. yayyy. dying for proper food! and cold drinks! finish le.. thn decided play arcade. my first time ok. lol. ok ok i noe i super suagu. o.o wore jacket over went in. then played racing car. HEH. first round she won me but subsequently i won! not bad sehhh. nice nice. met cass and gang. they pro at dancing stuf can? didnt noe desmond can lo. he dance until very nice so his fingers are guzheng playing ones. those long long de. LOL.

left me, zuhui, aud, yizhi and zhitoot. talked lots. sat at the place where ppl wait for the movies. the benches. but sat on the floor tho. nice yizhi treated everyone of us to ice cream and justea. YEA. nice rite? talked. abt the days. abt 2o9. abt stuff that happened this year. the unexpected ones. how good last year was.. how happy we were.. how fast time flew. how everyone missed the days.. how everyone wanted to be together again...

went home rather late. 6.30. pro us. took 178 with zuhui. found out some stuf.. sad lo. its like. someone whom u thot u can trust backstab u lo.. shocked la. u seriosuly wont believe it de.. and i used to think i can trust the person but instead, backstabbed me. walao. damn it lo. but im giving the person a chance.. hope can change back to the same person. hope so.

reached home.. only one home was my bro and he gave me this bushuang face. and guess what. i was looking fwd to a proper meal and all. and in the end i cooked maggi mee cos he dint want to go and buy dinner. sadcase. ate with the black box and my 2 dogs..

today went out with carol.. lib. hmmms. talked abt 2o9 too. see alot of differences between the cls now...

i miss 2o9.
i want the old days back- the craziest and yet happiest times of my life.
i want to live in the past.
is it impossible?

handsome. apache miss you! we love you! u rock!
apache!!

bio, amaths tests. turtles

2005-05-10T21:22:00.000+07:00

today was xian again.

bio test- die. die. die. actually rather okay la. yepp. hahas.
maths- omg. its super hard or sth? sure fail or what de lo. uhhuhs. hope mr chia dun go mad or sth on thursday. yepp. otherwise we cham liao. -.-

stayed back after sch. waited for huifen find qiang. yea. thn 2o9 guys were playing soccer. super enthu. got 6 of them? woos. super united can? they looked super happy together with leonard screaming his head off. they played in the rain. LOL. super gao xiao. really missed the days whr i kena rammed by ball. hahas.

so aniway me and fanny went central and get mocha ice blended which was heavenly. yepp. nice nice. costs more though but worth it.

shall end here.

TURTLE EATS VEGE.

chem test.

2005-05-09T22:52:00.000+07:00

hmms. today was xian. and tiring. was sleepy the whole day or sth lo.. kept yawning and when i yawned i always looked like i just cried or sth. uhhuhs.

had chem test.. before test there was revision for us so it was rather okay. average paper. i hope for at least a high distinction to moderate my sucky CT marks. foyang was into depression mode after test cos he didnt finish. cheer up yea? his depression mode super funny can? LOL lo. yea. but next time do better can le.. u trashed me in common test lo. yepp.

after sch there was this leadership camp briefing. there`s lots of stuff to bring. like. umm. example.. 2 bottles 1.25litres water. madness. and we r supposed to carry all the stuffs which include 3 pe shirts, 2 home shirts, 4 pants, 2 track pants, shoes, socks, toiletries, towels, sandals and everyting in our dumb haversack and go on expedition? sheer madness. my bone`s gonna crack. my biggest bag is my deuter bag.. oh man. doubt gonna fit everything in. o.O

uhhhs. went for maths remedial. my name was on the top of the list. pro. -.- i thought what lo. uhhuhs. cos mostly girls. whn see shiping`s and sherwin`s name dwn. i was like.. imposssible to be some nice thing. LOL. so yea. finished corrections and all at arnd 4? papa chia was super sad cos our cls dun listen to him.. hmm.

bio test tml. -.- flunking. fullstop. shit lo. mrs lip can`t teach. o.O

saw hannbin`s blog. super chio =)

speech day

2005-05-06T23:20:00.000+07:00

umm. we r supposed to be released at 11 but we got off at 1 instead. sadcase.. cos of chem. yeaaaaa. i think im gonna flunk monday`s test. yea. 3 chapters. and sure die de. i don`t understand a lot of stuffs. so yea.

thn. me fanny qings mich cassandra peixian decided to go eat pizza hut. wanted to eat yoshinoya actaully but its too far -bugis or orchard- and theres not much time left thx to chem supp cls and papa chia`s distribution if ws and reminder of test on monday.

IT RAINED. and everyone of us got drenched. me and fanny was worst hit. cos we were flagging cab. px super heng.. o.O uhhuh. edwin and donglin came along and kope-ed our cab. shit lo. and as the rain get heavier, we get wetter. super. a cab came along. finally yea. and then we dashed across the road super drenched and jumped into the cab dripping wet. thank god the uncle didnt get mad. hahas.

still wet, we entered jec. with out shirts semi-transparent. o.O luckily we had enuf sense not to change into sch blouse first. otherwise mrs lip will probably kill us. yea. thn there was alot of rv ppl.. and i didnt c my fren. PHEW. alot ppl stared at us. dots. we had hawaiian pizza. hmms. super nice. and i froze my butt off there.

went back sch. thn.. speech day. rather xian. i sat bside fanny and she kept putting her head on my shoulder. and i cant put mine on her otherwise i will break my neck.

after tht. went jp. with fanny. had mos`s ichigo bliss- i feel blessed! , fries and grape soda. thn we had famous amos cookies! omg lo. heavenly. yepp.

hmms. thts all? lau chose me to go to leadership camp- im shocked. -.-

second entry today =/

2005-05-04T18:32:00.000+07:00

right. my second entry today.. qi ji.
i`m dead dead dead tired. wanna just drop dead and sleep. or die. or whichever is better. i didn`t doze off or even feel like sleeping in cls. yeaaaaa. omg lo. i seriously think i need a full 24 hour sleep. yea.

had ss test. it was dumb. cos mrs sim marked our hist paper and it was horrendous. so, she gave us the question, let us find answers and memorise the xplanation and all. we r not supposed to write it down sumwhere la.. just rmbr. but its like. crap? yea. thn whn she say times up, we r supposed to keep our book. then get paper out and start. dots lo. easy. i think can pass.. had a bit of a block at the start tho. yepp.

my whole body hurts, thx to ytd`s napfa. and friday me and fanny haf to run shuttle run cos we didnt run. and then i think we have 2.4 too. uhhuhs. die la. no strength can? my stomach hurts.. but my back hurts more. shit. tht reminds me.. my aunt wants to bring me to some bone doctor. o.O yea. hope it doesnt hurt. =/

b.lim made us sing the sch song today after assembly cos we r audience for the speech day. yepp. rather wu liao. but we sang loud and after 3 tries she was pleased with us and let us go. LOL. gao xiao lo.

gw ngak tau lo dgn dia ngapain.
gw ngak peduli.
tapi elo udah ngak sama seperti yg dulu.
elo udah ngak care banget sama teman elo.
elo cuma peduli dia, dia aja.
gw berani bilang kalo elo hidup utk dia.
dunia elo cuma ada dia.
elo omong elo temen deket gw..
tapi, buktinya apa.saling ketemu juga ngak omong,gw ada masalah juga ngak kasih tau elo.
elo juga ngak tau gw mikirin apa.
terus. di tambah dia.
gw ngak tau sebernya apa yg gw pikirin.

short entry

2005-05-04T06:02:00.000+07:00

ok. quick one.
had napfa ytd. thn. umms.
i passed physics. o.O
having ss test today... and hafta come online get some stupid pics.
and ytd my cousin yakked on the damn fone for 3 or 4 hours so i cant go on net cos her rm`s fone has got no microfilter.
sadcase.
..
thts abt it. yepp.

expectations.

2005-05-02T21:01:00.000+07:00

i rotted at home today. again.
wait. i bathed my dogs today. thts abt it.
tml`s amaths test. failing. sure of it.

sometimes u just want to be freed from expectations. frm ur parents, peers and even frm urself. expectations to do sth, to do well in sch, to be there whenever they need u and to always do things rite. u expected yourself to do well, to be there, to be able to do stuff that u know u can`t. is this how everyone`s supposed to live? making mistakes is just how we learn, its how we grow up..

to someone-
u arent gonna see this i noe. ever since the day u were together. i distanced myself frm u. u changed to a totally different person- someone i do not know anymore. where was the old you? the real you? i can feel the gap, the distance between us widening. u dun seem to know anything anymore. u are never there whn i needed u.
the happiness whn i talked to u were gone. the ease, the feelings disappeared.
u acted like you noe me. but u don`t. u dont understand me.

slack slack

2005-05-02T12:52:00.000+07:00

its a weird time to update rite. uh-huhs. o.O 12.46am.

okay. basically i wanted to go work today but my aunt left without me and i dun wanna walk to the place. cos i was lazy. hahas. thn i found out later tht she has to go meet some dumb architect so she has to left early cos he called her late at nite so she didnt tell me. -.- dots.

slacked at home.
ate breakfast. thn slept at 10.. until 12. laze arnd in bed until arnd 1?
thn went to watch tv. bored. bored.
waited for my bro for my lunch and had cheese fries and nuggets. LOL. shuang. had sudden craving for pepsi and coke. hahas. madness..

thn i did my chem ws.. after tht read book. and sleep. yes, again. i'm such a pig. hahas.
slept frm 5 to 7 sth. feels super shuang. hehs.

had dinner. finished chem up and tried to do phy but i dunno how to.

surprisingly, i still feel sleepy after that hours of sleep. yepp. pro me. its 12.52 now. whoa.

walkathon =)

2005-04-30T21:32:00.000+07:00

this like like. shit. my rashes are back and its at nite. o.O usually morning nia. ok ok. watever la.

went for the walkathon at raffles uob plaza and to our amazement, a lot of other sch were there too. LOL. so we arent the youngest or the only schools la. hahas. heng heng. at the start we were like too too train-ing each other? lots of ppl la. so yea.. rather kewl and fun lo. it didnt feel like 2km. seriously. no biggie. hahas.

after tht went back schh. waited for hann bin and yj. pro-ness. late also must late together one ah? dots lo! went town. in the bus i was like feeling super duper bright. like there this sign above me: HELLO IM SUPER EXTRA COS IM THE ONLY ONE WITHOUT A BF. -.- hahas. rather depressing actually. yepp. thank god my les partner, namely fanny was there. =) yea. lol. gao xiao. on the way i nearly died due to diabetes. i told fanny my specifications for my funeral. hahas. kidding nia. the couple were too sweet. so en ai that i was like OMG. ok. went mac.. me and fanny ate proper breakfast. uh-huhs.

they couldnt decide what movie to watch so i was quite bu shuang. thn me and fanny left. wanted to go join qings carol they all de. but decided to go get pencil box first. thn we went wisma and taka. ate lots of stuf lo -burps. thn went cine and heeren.

we got ours! so attitude lo. LOL. mine reads: DO I LOOK LIKE I FREAKING CARE? ahhahahas. fanny one super like her man. its: omg. im so dead. im like so dead can? so gao xiao lo. uh-huhs. we so dun regret not going marina bay. haha. so rock. yepp. we enjoyed this whole thing.

i saw lotsa things i want. BOOs.

went home sleep. super tired. and woke up at around 7. now im talkin` to ahpek. LOL.

2005-04-28T22:40:00.000+07:00

ok. short post.
rashes broke out again. today. this morning. uh-huhs. xian.
had maths test. rather ok. tho abit long.
mr chia didnt come.. mrs siew came for 15 mins.
history.. we had test. mrs sim die die dun want postpone can?
-.- BOO.

leonard is sitting in front of me now and we quarreled the moment he sat? dots.
ahpek rite at the back, behind px. LOL. have a nice life; enjoy =)

i have a pink rose on my table. hahas. super chio. hehs.

tml`s 2.4km. wanna pon. but cannot.. so gonna pia tml. hahas. wish me luck. hope i didnt go jelly-legs like last week after the run. lol.

xian.xian!

2005-04-27T17:35:00.000+07:00

qings came. she just left.. yea. talked. talked and talked. we studied some history. yepp. read la.. havent memorise yet but watever. yepp. umms.

lim praised 3/3 during morning assembly. -.- shocked tio. u noe why? cos we lined up according to reg. no. pro us. hahas. we had mass cleanup ytd tho not much effort at least the clsrm was cleaner. thn changed seat. oh man. sadcase. im sitting rite behind this ahpek and beside zengwei. HAHA. -.- heng huifen came over otherwise i probably rotted. lols. thn we went lib thn lj to eat. yeaaaa.

guess what. my rashes are still there and my worried sick aunt wenta ask chn doc. he said im weak. -.- dots! uhhhhuh.

i need more sleep than food.
cant sleep well. dunno why.
so sucky. =(

we had english test- rather ok. i want a distinction. hahas.
tml is hist and emaths. and i haven`t finish my corrections. uh-oh.

i never did left you
you drifted apart from me
and yet now ur blaming me for this type of friendship.
how could you.

sucky day in sch.

2005-04-25T16:58:00.000+07:00

ummm. my allergy came back this morning. shocked tio can? dots. so i went to eat medicine and everything.. thn sneaked dwn to wear my socks- wore ultra long ones today, just in time before my aunt came dwn. heng. dun want let her noe.. wanted to go sch.. just felt tht i haf to gif him moral support? dunno la. so yea.

umms. went sch with my skin feeling as tho i haf been dipped into ice. -.- unbearable la. walao. i think it got better.. but i cant pay serious attention in cls cos i felt freaking drowsy- thx to the bloody med. boo. until now. some rashes came up again. o.o hais.

so i cried.
and i promised not to.
im such a promise breaker.
sorrie sherwin.

mr chee sucks.
lao teeko. hate u.

hannbin`
thx for u noe. tryin to cheer me up. tis morning. yepp. thx lots for the green tea =) u rock.

why is it u dun care anymore?
u used to care so much.
but not now,
now tht u already have someone else.

SUCK.

2005-04-24T20:11:00.000+07:00

shld i blog?

dunno la. the world is so freaking screwed.
went to c doc ytd cos the allergy got worse. and i got an mc. for monday..
which reminds me. i dun want monday to come..

its so gonna suck.
nh is a heartless sch. bloody hell.
so suck lo.

went library with carol.. thn qings come join us. yea.. ok la.. no mood to do hw. xian.

sometimes i felt like i was being torn apart
until there was nothing left of me.
and other times i felt so on top-of-the-world fantastic
tht i thot my heart would explode.

stuckathome

2005-04-23T15:44:00.000+07:00

im bored to tears. BOO.

supposedly sick.. so i hafta stay at home. and stone. practically rotted. =/ xiann. i dun wannd do my hw. haisss. been online since 9.30. arnd 6 hours le.. hahas.

stuck at home, all alone.

-idunwanmondaytocome-

DAMN SCH.

2005-04-22T20:38:00.000+07:00

SHIT.

thts what life is. its so freaking screwed up.
school sucks. nh sucks.
freaking discipline. shit u all. damn school.

life sucks.
im gonna break down. again.

i hate the sch. DAMN U ALL.

lau sucks. hearing u nyak for 2 hours is enough.

i dunno what to say, what to do.
for the first time, im speechless.

cip =)

2005-04-21T20:42:00.000+07:00

hmms. gonna update.. hahas.

today we had cip. at the st. luke`s place.. rather kewl. reached there earlier with huifen along. hahas. then tio scold by the head cos we dun haf any programmes for the elders. uh-huh. after tht not as bad liao. got to interact with old peeps. they kinda kewl and are all super nice =) lols. we met this english-speaking uncle which is blardy nice. LOL. yeah. and some aunties as well. kewl kewl.

everythin hasnt been going well for most ppl. well yeah. u noe hu u are. rite...

today was xian. xian xian xian and more xian. chinese`s only perks is the songs she played -shou fang kai. not the stupid 7minutes song. uh-huh. the lyrics is nice but not when u sing it. yeahh. mr chia ok la. abit xiao nia.. normal. chem was super funny with qings, leonard and mich. hahas. di san ze. LOL.

after chem we r joking abt the bondings. like. samuel and foyang then sherwin the 3rd party came along. LOL. gao xiao. i pulled his tail today! LOL. he and edwin kena punished cos his socks lent to edwin then tio checked. super suay lo. hahas. then i tink they went to buy a pair then one person wear one side. hahas.

i went to recess without my socks today. o.O

im not gonna care abt all ur attitude towards us. ur not worth it.

hann bin`s bdae!

2005-04-19T18:40:00.000+07:00

heyy heyy.

happy birthday hann bin! =)

heex. more mature and u wanted kuai gao zhang da. lols. tall enough liao la. 3cm more tall enough le. yepp. gao xiao la u. hahas. hmms. may u be happy always. yepp. dun keep ur troubles to urself yea? im here! haha. cheersss.

hehhhs. today nth much. everythin was super xian. xian xian xian. bored to tears. yepp. physics was extraordinarily boring. wads new? hmmms. and we r gonna haf a test this friday. great. im so gonna fail la. =/ aiyox.

went clementi after sch. drank bubble tea. alot of nhrians too. lol. thn chased the dumb imm bus with mich qings and cassandra, leaving poor fanny behind to wait 4 her shuttle bus. heh. poor her. was okay la. abit xian.. huhhhs. we kind of stoned and watch qings and cassandra eat their noodles. lol.

hmmms. hmmm. anythin else? OH YEAh. i will haf cip this week.. 2 more days. yepp. i dunno wheres the place lo. hahas. wateverrr la.

its so so super boring. lifes so unfair.

2005-04-17T23:00:00.000+07:00

hmms. few days since i updated. lots to update abt- -

friday- sports day
rather kewl. okay.. abit xian la.. not much spirit. position marshall duty rather fun la. hahas. gd view of everythin`. yepp. thn our cls won quite alot la.. not bad. yea. kj and gang super pro. meileng too. not to mention xiaowei and michelle. all those who participate are super great people :) heh. sprayed hair orange. hilight.. super chio lols. i went first cos noone dared. hahas. looks kewl. super. mrs fong was remarking tht i look like a puppy? DOTS. dun get her.

hann bin won individual champ b boys. pro dude. congrats. modern dance got gold of honour- announced it halfway thru. hahas. can brag to RV liao. Wooooooohooooooooos. shuang gan. imagine their face. LOL.

after tht went je eat... jap. super nice lol. thn chat chat chat. took quite lots of pic. hahas. hmmms. after tht went jp with fanny and michelle. hmms. thn went home. abit early tho. 8.30 only. hahas. last yr reached at 9.30 lei. one hour diff. hahas..

saturday- prize presentation
it`s at toa payoh la. super far can? abit miscommunication so took cab there in the end. uh-huh. had to wear blazer and tie. kewl. but hot. uh-huh. won 2nd.. 300 bucks cash. dunno if they gonna gif sch or us. wateverrr. the mc super enthu abt our sch can? she was practically screaming NAN HUA SECONDARY SCHOOL. dotsss. enthu xia. the tea reception was nice. lols. the food superb lo! hahas. the fish fingers are nice. :) lols. thn had kfc cheese fries for lunch. after tea? LOL. doesnt make sense la. hahas. mr chiu treat us. so paisehhh. he dun wanna take our money. uh huh.

after tht took mrt to je. far. thn to city hall. my gawd. yea. like. lame rite? DOTS. went to meet my uncle frm indo.. thn this ahpek [not sherwin lols] came and ask me if can borrow my fone. he called to m`sia and asked needa pay money or not. .. i say dun need. lols. hope my bill dun bust. -.- yea.

we had jap. again. was super nice. love tempura! whoaaa. it was super ex lo! omg. hahas. but very very nice! hehs. worth it? my set cost arnd 13 bucks. the chicken was nice. tempura too. LOL. reached hm arnd 10... then sleep.

sunday- library trip with qings
after my tuition which i reach early 10.50 [start at 11] i went to meet qings. go lib. guai us. thn went je eat chawan mushi. jap again. my gawd lor. hmms. chatted at the rink- we watched ppl. sherwin said he going library- shocked me. lols. guai la!

we went took the ulu machine at jec. omg. funny can? lols. super. hahas. so.. lame lor. its like all small kids? HAHA.

now.
sherwin just told me he met with accident? omg lor. walao. and he`s like telling me his bike gone liao. dots. priorities! pls la.. ur more impt than the bike lo. -.- tc horr.

national x-country

2005-04-14T18:29:00.000+07:00

first of all, i wld like to congrats kaiming =) yeahhhh. 2nd year champ. heh. shuang. congrats congrats. told ya u can do it le. yays. he`s damn pro la. omg. yea. and to tink hes my runner di.. and here am i, always slacking during 2.4. HAHA.

kaiming u rock. big time. more than me la! lol.

even tho he probably wont see this cos he dun read blogs.. but watever. im just super duper happy he won =)

oh yea.. forgot to mention nh de. -.- the b boys came in arnd 90 sth- for samuel. i tink its not bad for start la. yepp. jiayou! aniway before i took a cab with wanqing to turf city, i was busy tryin` to jio ppl go with me. uh-huh. so keliannn. whn qings went off with leonard, i was stuck with ah pek sherwin. o.O we r like arguing whos the monkey (him) and the barbarian (also him). hahas. lame. he`s like trying to bribe the drink stall auntie to say he look younger than me by calling her xiao jie. LOLS. but she dun care aniway. hahaaaa. too bad! =p i ended up finishing my hw at sch.. shuangg.

today is another xian day at sch. oh. one good thing- we didnt have physics today. YEA. HAHA.

went to mac today after sch.. chatted. yepp. nice nice. thn there`s this waiter or sth keep walkin in front of us? dotss. stop iit fanny. we got our cls tee today. quite chioo yea? hahas. alot other classes got theirs today too la. last minute.

oh yeah. got back chn test. 60. thn went off to minus 2 marks. so 58. sadcase. blahhhhs.

hmmms. shoutouts:
`fanny and qings- HELO. I`M SO GONNA DIE OF DIABETES. u noe?!? hahas. kiddin. u guys are sooo sweet.

`carol- hhmmms. dun sad le la.. over the cls tee. its not bad u noe? yea. and over frenship and stuf. yepp. cheerups.

`kaiming di- well. u did it. trust urself more la. aiyo. tc loads!

sadness

2005-04-10T18:24:00.000+07:00

this yr has been my worst year.. i tink. everythin`s going wrong. most.

cried the most this year.

i lost ppl.. whom r close to me. i lost trust in ppl whom i thought i could rely on. i lost hope in everything i do.. everything everyone did. i lost faith.

i lost everything.

its the last straw.. i guess. time i broke dwn. again.

disappointed

2005-04-09T23:01:00.000+07:00

uhh.

cried on friday. cos of some dumb reason la.. disappointed as hell. was so stressed up and haf been holding everything back i guess. so i cried.. like finally.

crying alot this year. over this and that. sadcase.

-sighs. dunno what is going on exactly.

my body hurts. i dunno why.

sports heats

2005-04-07T15:07:00.000+07:00

wanted to blog ytd but was super tired.
yepp..

ytd was sports heats. but it rained half-way so postoned to tml. yeahh. kewl.. can pon cca. LOLS. okayy. so samuel and wing kin not running for events.. sickening. like. wth lo. crap excuses also can gif. summore sum ppl trust them so much to win that medal. get real la, they aint. yeah so they got subs. nigel and jim. jim actually dun wan de.. dunno what changed his mind actually.. they chao pro yea? omg. second lor. first was sec 4 so nxt year is definitely our year. hmms. hahas. shuangg. xiao wei too. pro like xiao.. yea. she ran even tho she hurt her leg, and still got second for every event. PRO. we owe her 20 cans of soft drink. o.O -gulps. dun care. we promised her already. hehs.

after tht we went to clementi to drink bubble tea. again. hahas. with skj and wanqing. yepp. we saw gan lao shi too. lols. dun care call him la.

ummms. was super tired. slept at 0930 and didnt really study for today`s test but watever. i tink i failed le la. thn summore so little time and i so dun get the dumb compre passage. uh huh. sure die. but i tink i did pretty well on han zi. LOLS. shan`t care.

hmmms. went bubble tea again. was quite retarded lar. went clementi with huifen thn met wenjian. after tht i went mrt platform to wait for the stupid mrt thn wanqing called me and ask me come dwn. HAHA. stupid rite? well the most stupid thing is- i went down. lols. wateverrrrr. ate roti boy too. so rock can? met bingqi aka pinky. lols. went hm.

msgs:
`jim: okay. i was super pissed with u tht nite before sports heats la.. disappointed as well cos i thot i can rely on u. yepp. whn i realised u dun wan to, i was like. crushed. yepp. no hope le la. but thn u turned up.. didnt let me dwn. thx loads. u rock.

`qings: hmm. everythin will be alrite, dun be paranoid yea?

`xiaowei: ur super pro =) thx for trying ur best.

`ppl tht ran: u guys rock.

pissed.

2005-04-04T18:54:00.000+07:00

im super pissed today.

it was hist project then now this.

my life is SO screwed.

sumone entangle all the mixed up thoughts is my mind...

3three rock. kaiming =)

2005-04-03T20:28:00.000+07:00

hmmms.

went 2 carol`s hse to do project today.. history. yepp. quite fun la. umm ummm. i seriously dunno wat else to blog abt. hahas. we finished like three quarter of it there. xian. i tink lenin is better than stalin. HAHA. he`s more cool. stalin is like so blahh.

ermmms. oh yar! we had the bball finals on friday but i can`t watch cos i had ITMC. sheesh. shld haf ponned lar.. we had zuwee frm it21 again and this pre-production, production and post production talk which was super boring.. i slept. HAHAS. half-awake state la.. but watever. ms lau was sleeping! lols. we stared at her and she woke up and glared back at us.. lols. then she act act walk arnd the lab. dots lor. hmmmmms. we won the match!! yays!! whee~ so cool rite? omg. its like sec 3 beating sec 4? LOLS. big deal. but they won by a slight margin so very hengg yea? congrats! 3three rock! yea!

i just found out our sch is participating in the nats. omg. im super shocked. astonished.. rather amused la. hahas.

kaiming, jiayou yea?? u rock and u sure can do it de =) i trust u! yepp. gonna support u rather than my sch. LOLS. yea. don`t lose faith in urself. dun give up =) cheers! tc and love ya loadss di!!

after today.
maybe its still possible
to go back
to what we used to be

hmmms. new update; sians

2005-03-29T18:35:00.000+07:00

heyy peeps.

25`march: happy birthday fanny and xueli!

26`march: happy bday edwin (neo)!

28`march: happy birthday valen!

okay i took a super long time to update or sth. hahas. did up this template ytd nite, whn i`m supposed to be studyin for the stupid chn test. yepp. lamoo. i did the test already and its rather okay. xcept i was dead tired and was sleeping whn ling lao shi going thru. she kept lookin at me lor! dots.

jarrel didn`t come today. again. hahas. nvm. get well soon la yea? ru hua misses u :) lols.

i tink i was pms-ing super badly ytd nite. yepp. i got super pissed doin amaths and practically scolded edwin (tan). paisehh. sorrie yea? didn`t mean to scold u. serious. uh huh. thn stupid sherwin splashedd me with soap water. dots. hello? i`m older than u lo! HAHA. big deal, u taller only mahhs. him, edwin and dawei has detention of cleaning the walls or sth but since ytd, i noticed tht they haf been cleaning the same ones. -.- lol.

wento ginza.. had farmosa de noodles. not bad. super big bowl lo. omgg. cant finish. hahas. quite nice place except for the bad taste of song choices. definitelyy. but the drinks are ex. hahas. ummms. thts all?

i seriously dunno wad to blog anemore. hmmms.

oh yea, the temp nice mahh? not bad la rite?
okay credits: wenjian! thx sooo much 4 the heart pic. i tink it rawks. lols. thx!

cheers. :)

2005-03-16T16:40:00.000+07:00

hmmms.
had presentation on monday.. was rather okay. yepp. i was going fast la, shooting my mouth off. hahas. mr chia dragged me and hui fen to go talk 2 general lam or sth during refreshment.. -.-" whn he asked how come we r in this seminar thn i was like.. voluntary basis. dots lo. i was practically ans everythin` but nvm. yepp. it was rather fake. we wr given this kewt lil` yellow stickman radio.
didnt hav a blog for a long time.. un-used to it.

happy birthday jarrel! =) yays.

careforce bbq in hours. its 1 plus. my gawd. i spent my day slacking and watching tv. and sleep. yea.. watched leehom special. omg. sho shuaaai lo. -swoons.

its late. umm. early. tink im goin off soon. bye.

sad stufs..

2005-03-07T13:12:00.000+07:00

`what i feel rite now.

laughter, fun and joy
are no longer here,
fading,
they get replaced.

hurt, sadness, pain.
resignment,
i felt.
do i always have toend up this way?

harsh, cold, cruel truth.
feeling unwanted.
whenever i start to feel loved,
i lose it all.

whenever new people comes along in life,
i get abandoned.
given cold shoulders,
being ignored, uncared for, left out.

i lost stuffs that meant most to me,
you.
i thought its just new people,
nothing to worry about.

yet worries took over me
sleepless nights came,
tossing in bed i thought about it
unable to face the truth.

i was worried.
trying to erase them out of my mind,
i tried hard to convince myself
that we will still be together.

but i was proven wrong.
very wrong.
at that period of time,
noone cared.

maybe its me,
just me
my over sensitivity.
but was it?

i guessed not.

the truth slapped me hard in the face,
snapping me out of my dreams
into reality, into hell.
discovering what it realy is.

it doesn't last.
does it?

people always say: "friends forever"
but once someone better came along,
they stepped out of our lives
almost immediately, in a flash.

don't they know how much,
they meant to me?
they are the pieces that forms my heart,
giving me strength, love, care, bravery, happiness.

but it was broken,
my heart was.
leaving me in the darkness, engulfing me
it shattered.